Confession of Identity
Thursday, April 22, 2010 | 3:04 PM | with 20 rabbits |
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Withered looks with a questioning eye
Perhaps you know it was a only lie
I can never keep something from you
I can never run away from you.
Yeah, it's true, I've been hiding
I thought at first it's myself I were freeing
Yet soon I realized what kind of life
Without your guidance and love at my side.
But I don't have a face to show
Now that I ruined your dreams in a blow
I lied to you and show I don't care
But these sadness and guilt, I couldn't bare.
Now with sunken face of a bastard son
I am, asking for forgiveness for what I've done
For disappointments, shame, I gave to our family
But I hope you could accept I'm now but a 'she'.
Labels: Confession of Identity, Identity crisis, poem
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Why BAKA USAGI?
BAKA USAGI (which can be translated as "
stupid rabbit")
I got it from watching 2 animes which I really enjoyed:
pandora hearts and
junjou romantica.
In the magical world of pandora hearts
, one of the main character is Alice which transforms into a black rabbit. She got the nickname from Gilbert Nightray whose always having petty fights with her.(~ ^ O ^)~?
In junjou romantica, Akihiko Usami's nickname is "Usagi-san" and when he makes fun of Misaki of doing ecchi stuffs 
with him, Misaki calls him "baka usagi-san". I always love those scenes where misaki blushes and fights over his feelings and totally denying it.
I personally 
rabbit because they are cute and all. And t's okay for me to be called an
idiot. In manga and anime, being an idiot is a
cool and cute thing since you can start at the beginning being weak then slowly moving forward and becoming who you want to be.
I like to admit i'm an idiot--in dealing with things i don't know.
I guess it's okay to be an idiot as long as you know who you are and you know what's your purpose in life.
Why AYU?
AYU
I got it from the name of
my favorite character in an anime which taught me the
bitter and most hurtful side of love--
honey and clover.
Her whole name is
Ayumi Yamada.
A third-year art student, age 21 at the start of the series, specializing in ceramic arts. She is well-known by other students for her pottery and her nicknameTetsujin "Iron-lady" for running 6 km to school every morning to help her dog lose weight. She is depicted as a beautiful young woman, who catches the attention of her male friends and coworkers. Yamada is deeply in love with Mayama, but he does not return her feelings and repeatedly encourages her to find someone else. Later in the series, she is angered by Mayama's sudden protectiveness when he tries to shield her from his former boss, Nomiya. Yamada is close friends with Hagu, who addresses her by first name. At the end of the series, Yamada continues as a graduate student in art, while making pottery for Harada Design.(-x)
While I was watching the anime,
I could relate myself to her 
that's why I started adapting her nickname "
ayu" as my pen name.
Confession of Identity
Thursday, April 22, 2010 | 3:04 PM | with 20 rabbits |
add more :3
Withered looks with a questioning eye
Perhaps you know it was a only lie
I can never keep something from you
I can never run away from you.
Yeah, it's true, I've been hiding
I thought at first it's myself I were freeing
Yet soon I realized what kind of life
Without your guidance and love at my side.
But I don't have a face to show
Now that I ruined your dreams in a blow
I lied to you and show I don't care
But these sadness and guilt, I couldn't bare.
Now with sunken face of a bastard son
I am, asking for forgiveness for what I've done
For disappointments, shame, I gave to our family
But I hope you could accept I'm now but a 'she'.
Labels: Confession of Identity, Identity crisis, poem
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I'm Ayu. 
